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Fuerteventura

2010-08-16T23:47:00.003+02:00

I wanna scream

2010-08-15T22:51:00.001+02:00

(without words)

By the way

2010-08-09T23:34:00.001+02:00

The old template sucked!

Where did I go wrong?

2010-08-09T21:53:00.003+02:00

I expected too much from this travel.
I expected to run away from my problems, but my problems followed me.
I expected to find answers, but I made the wrong questions.
I expected to remember all the things that I have, but I realized that they're not enough anymore.
I expected to forget someone, but I ended up thinking about him all the time.

I'll have to try again...

What if...

2010-07-14T22:43:00.005+02:00

Still alive, someway, somehow...
lots of things happened meanwhile, bad things, good things... I keep asking if some of them could have been different, but it makes no sense. You cannot change the past, you can only learn from it and grow and try to become a better person.
I suffered a lot in these months. My already wavering faith in love had to bear a big blow... more than one, on second thoughts.
I cried a lot, I loved and hated, I hitted the bottom and I'm still trying to re-emerge.
Next week I'm going on holiday, maybe relax, sun and sea can help me understand what I really want and what to do with my life.

Unwritten

2009-10-17T15:39:00.005+02:00

I am unwritten
can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand
ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
that you can not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition
sometimes my tries are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes
but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
that you can not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
that you can not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Hello everybody

2009-05-31T13:19:00.002+02:00

I'm back! I have been living in my new house for 6 weeks. I'm fine, I'm having a lot of fun being alone. I think it's important for a person to spend time living on his own, to understand a lot of things about life and about himself. It gives you larger maturity and wisdom, and it's a great experience.
I'll come back soon, I promise!
bye...

Ch-Ch-Ch-Change

2009-04-09T21:48:00.005+02:00

I'm not gone, I'm still here! ;) The problem is the same again: I don't have time... I have a lot of things to tell you ("you" who?): my six months stage ends tomorrow. Today I talked with my boss and he said that they're all satisfied with my job, that I've got great potential. I'm happy. I knew that he regarded me with esteem, but is very pleasant to receive confirmations. So they extended my contract for another year.
On the other hand I have my little house! I started my moving two weeks ago, it's being difficult and very long... few further things are missing and then everything will be in its place!
I'm trying to manage all this mess, it's hard, but I keep trying...

Que sera, sera... whatever will be, will be...

2009-02-20T19:55:00.003+01:00

3 weeks...
3 weeks from now I'll have my own home
I'll finally live on my own
I know that I'll have to deal with a lot of issues
I know that it will be very very hard
but when the going gets tough, the tough get going!

Yes we can

2009-01-20T22:30:00.003+01:00

I come back after a long silence... I'm very sorry but I don't have much to say.
I keep working, someone says that I'm doing a good job and this makes me happy and proud. I keep searching for a place, but it's hard to find something that fits me.
I'm getting along with my colleague, they are nice and funny and we spend a lot of time laughing together!

So, I'm trying to draw my new life... sometimes it's hard, but it's an attractive challenge!

Don't you too? I do I do I do I do I do

2008-11-30T19:36:00.005+01:00

Love me or leave me
make your choice but believe me
I love you
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do
I can't conceal it,
don't you see, can't you feel it?
Don't you too?
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

Oh, I've been dreaming through my lonely past
Now I just made it, I found you at last

So come on, now let's try it,
I love you, can't deny it
'Cos it's true
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

Oh, no hard feelings between you and me
If we can't make it, but just wait and see

So come on, now let's try it,
I love you, can't deny it
'Cos it's true
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do
So love me or leave me,
make your choice but believe me
I love you
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do
I can't conceal it,
don't you see, can't you feel it?
Don't you too?
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

New template

2008-11-29T20:27:00.003+01:00

Finally I've done it, I'm not sure that I like it, but it seems quite a good job. I'd like to have your feedback, so I started a poll, you can find it in the right column... please be sincere!

Work in progress

2008-11-26T22:44:00.003+01:00

Probably no one noticed that I'm changing my blog's template...
It's taking more time than I thought, evidently I'm not that good in editing XML!

Happy birthday to me!

2008-11-04T19:48:00.007+01:00

I'm 23
I've got a degree
I've got a job
I've got a car
I've got some good friends who are always there when I need them
I've got one nephew and three nieces who make me smile

I'm happy...

The long and winding week

2008-10-10T22:40:00.004+02:00

This has been a hard week. I've given up the idea of living on my own, for the time being, but I'm searching for a car. I spent last 7days to find a nice and cheap car but I haven't decided yet
Meanwhile, I took some time for myself, to understand who I really am and what I want.
I needed some help, and I'm glad that I found it. Now I'm happier and prouder of myself than before, and I have a greater self-esteem

World conquest: step one

2008-10-03T17:26:00.004+02:00

Now, I have a job. At least for next 6 months. I'll start next monday.
I'm scared, excited, nervous, baffled and a lot of other feelings...

Next step: finding a house...

Berlin

2008-09-28T23:13:00.000+02:00

Fight against myself

2008-09-26T14:15:00.004+02:00

I said this in my first post and with my first song.

And so I sent some men to fight
And one came back at dead of night
Said he'd seen my enemy
Said he looked just like me

I figured out today what I should have realized long time ago: the reason why I fail my job interviews is that I'm not able to speak highly of myself. They ask me to talk about myself and I can't help thinking about all my faults and all my mistakes. I don't know what to answer when they ask me which benefits they would have hiring me, because I don't think that they would benefit hiring me...
So... my first enemy is myself!
And what can I do to overcome this situation?
I don't know... but I'll find out, I'm sure!

Ich bin eine Berliner

2008-09-01T09:35:00.002+02:00

I'm back!!
I already miss Berlin and being with my dear friend, we had a lot of fun together!
Berlin is a nice city with a lot of unfortunately sad history. Now my holidays are coming to an end... soon I'll have to restart my job search :(

Berlin, we're coming!!!

2008-08-25T21:34:00.001+02:00

Tomorrow at this time I'll be on a plane, for the first time in my life!
Honey, you'll need a great patience!!!

See you next week!

Leaving

2008-08-01T00:47:00.002+02:00

My holidays officially start tomorrow! I've got the feeling that them won't be so relaxing ...
If everything goes as planned, I'll go to Berlin with a special friend ... I would rather have gone to London... but there will be another time

Goodbye to everyone, see you on september!!

Please, answer me!!

2008-07-26T16:28:00.007+02:00

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain.
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again.

And you come to me on a summer breeze,
keep me warm in your love,
then you softly leave.
And it’s me you need to show
how deep is your love.

DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
I REALLY MEAN TO LEARN,
'CAUSE WE'RE LIVING
IN A WORLD OF FOOLS
BREAKING US DOWN,
WHEN THEY ALL SHOULD LET US BE.
WE BELONG TO YOU AND ME

I believe in you.
You know the door to my very soul.
You’re the light in my deepest darkest hour.
You’re my saviour when I fall.

And you may not think I care for you
when you know down inside that I really do.
And it’s me you need to show
how deep is your love.

DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
I REALLY MEAN TO LEARN,
'CAUSE WE'RE LIVING
IN A WORLD OF FOOLS
BREAKING US DOWN,
WHEN THEY ALL SHOULD LET US BE.
WE BELONG TO YOU AND ME...

To go or not to go: that is the question

2008-07-23T10:53:00.002+02:00

I have to decide, and decide quickly, what I'm gonna do with my life. Here I found a sort of stability, I'm happy, so I don't know if I want to leave everything for the second time to restart a new life in another city. I'm scared...

Call me engineer

2008-07-17T17:26:00.002+02:00

Create yours at BlingyBlob.com!

Finally I've done it!
I'm proud of myself

Arghhhhh

2008-07-11T22:00:00.002+02:00

Hi everybody!
I'm very nervous!!! My degree-day is coming closer and I haven't prepared my speech yet.
As if that were not enough, my shoulders and my face are sunburnt, so I look like a lobster

WHAT CAN I DOOOOO????

How much longer will it take to cure this?

2008-06-23T22:47:00.004+02:00

So she said "what's the problem baby?"
What's the problem? I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

One dream came true

2008-06-17T23:17:00.005+02:00

I'm in the Guinness World Record! Thanks to Firefox

If I can fly... can I fly now?

2008-06-15T21:55:00.005+02:00

Me, now

Are my wings strong enough to bear the winds out there?

Ghost Whisperer

2008-06-07T12:09:00.010+02:00

Yesterday I was seeing last 3 episodes of Ghost Whisperer's second season, when I bumped into this:

and I have to say something to the writers:

Dear Ghost Whisperer's writers... I know that Italian isn't an easy language, but please, please ASK somebody who knows italian before putting into a show something so incorrect!!

this newspaper does not exists
newspaper's name does not mean anything: it's like "Rome Global Publish", plus publish is in the second-person singular
111 vittima = 111 victim, needs plural (111 vittime = 111 victims)
dado 2 qui sotto... I really don't know what that have to do with it!
i ladri della banca hanno sentenziato alla prigione per trenta anni = bank's thieves have passed judgement at the prison for 30 years

so, next time, ask me!! ;)

One goal achieved

2008-06-05T15:41:00.004+02:00

Today I've finished my last examination!! I'm so happy!!!
Now, there's only one thing that separates me from the degree: my thesis...

Wish me good luck!

Sex & the city

2008-06-04T00:28:00.003+02:00

I want a pair of Manolo Blahniks.
NOW!

I'm joking... I will never be able to walk on that kind of shoes :)
I said it because I just watched "Sex & the City: The Movie" and I loved it...

LOST season 4 finale

2008-05-31T20:35:00.009+02:00

WOW!!!
Amazing!

No hope, no love, no glory... no happy ending

2008-05-29T18:58:00.004+02:00

Once I had a friend, we spent everyday together, talking, sharing our feelings.
We began when we woke up, and ended with goodnights

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more

We fell in love, we lived the perfect story for awhile... he was all my life, my soul mate.

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.

I fell apart, and spent months trying to pick up the pieces of my broken heart...
I managed it, we keep being friends, talking, sharing and all the things we did before. But nothing was like before.
We lost each other, now we're stranger... what we've been together no longer exists

This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

EDIT: I forgot to thank Mika for "Happy Ending", the beautiful song I used in this post

Chasing Pavements

2008-05-24T20:34:00.005+02:00

I loved this song from the first time I heard it... it's so sweet!
It touched me because I see me in her shoes: a not very attractive girl who is in love with a boy.
She doesn't know if he could ever fall for her, maybe she is bothered by her appearance , maybe she don't think he could ever look at her with loving eyes...

She is asking herself "should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere?". Sometimes it's difficult to answer this question, sometimes we choose the wrong way...

This time, I choose to give up

Wrong person, wrong time...

2008-04-28T18:24:00.004+02:00

I haven't wrote a lot in this blog, I know.
The thing I don't know is why.
Maybe I'm just having a hard time.
My training, the last examinations, the rush of graduating by July... I feel so stressed!

I'll be back, I promise, and I will make this blog worth reading!

Happy easter to everyone!

2008-03-20T12:10:00.002+01:00

Growing up

2008-03-11T10:44:00.004+01:00

I'm gonna do my first interview, I'm so nervous!
It's not exactly a job interview, but it's for my university training.
So why am I so scared?
Well, this training is important for me for various reasons, first of all, this will be a three months training, five-day week, 8 hours a day, so it will be a preview of my future life.
Another important reason is that the company might decide to hire me... so I can't fail!

Yesterday I wrote my first curriculum... soon my life will come to a turning point

Something about me

2008-03-01T10:06:00.001+01:00

It's difficult for me to talk about myself. I've been staring at this blank page for hours...

Let's try!

I'm 22, I'm italian and I'm studying computer engineering.
I love music and I like to sing, although I'm totally tuneless! So I sing only when no one can hear me especially when I'm driving.
Few days ago I posted James Blunt's "Same misake", I chose this song to begin my blog because it describes exactly the way I feel at this point of my life.
I feel like someone who's fighting against himself, and keep doing always the same mistake...

Same mistake

2008-02-27T09:30:00.000+01:00

So while I'm turning in my sheets
And once again I cannot sleep
Walk out the door and up the street
Look at the stars beneath my feet
Remember rights that I did wrong
So here I go

Hello, hello

There is no place I cannot go
My mind is muddy but
My heart is heavy, does it show?
I lose the track that loses me
So here I go

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

And so I sent some men to fight
And one came back at dead of night
Said he'd seen my enemy
Said he looked just like me
So I set out to cut myself
And here I go

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

I’m not calling for a second chance
I'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don’t give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake again

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

And maybe someday we will meet
And maybe talk and not just speak
Don't buy the promises cause
There are no promises I keep
And my reflection troubles me
So here I go

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

I’m not calling for a second chance
I’m screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don’t give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake

I’m not calling for a second chance
I'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don’t give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake again

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

Uhuh uhuh uhuh
So while I'm turning in my sheets
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
And once again I cannot sleep
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Walk out the door and up the street
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Look at the stars
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Look at the stars falling down
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
And I wonder where
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Did I go wrong?