What if...

Still alive, someway, somehow...
lots of things happened meanwhile, bad things, good things... I keep asking if some of them could have been different, but it makes no sense. You cannot change the past, you can only learn from it and grow and try to become a better person.
I suffered a lot in these months. My already wavering faith in love had to bear a big blow... more than one, on second thoughts.
I cried a lot, I loved and hated, I hitted the bottom and I'm still trying to re-emerge.
Next week I'm going on holiday, maybe relax, sun and sea can help me understand what I really want and what to do with my life.