I wanna scream

(without words)

Where did I go wrong?

I expected too much from this travel.
I expected to run away from my problems, but my problems followed me.
I expected to find answers, but I made the wrong questions.
I expected to remember all the things that I have, but I realized that they're not enough anymore.
I expected to forget someone, but I ended up thinking about him all the time.

I'll have to try again...

What if...

Still alive, someway, somehow...
lots of things happened meanwhile, bad things, good things... I keep asking if some of them could have been different, but it makes no sense. You cannot change the past, you can only learn from it and grow and try to become a better person.
I suffered a lot in these months. My already wavering faith in love had to bear a big blow... more than one, on second thoughts.
I cried a lot, I loved and hated, I hitted the bottom and I'm still trying to re-emerge.
Next week I'm going on holiday, maybe relax, sun and sea can help me understand what I really want and what to do with my life.

Hello everybody

I'm back! I have been living in my new house for 6 weeks. I'm fine, I'm having a lot of fun being alone. I think it's important for a person to spend time living on his own, to understand a lot of things about life and about himself. It gives you larger maturity and wisdom, and it's a great experience.
I'll come back soon, I promise!
bye...

Ch-Ch-Ch-Change

I'm not gone, I'm still here! ;) The problem is the same again: I don't have time... I have a lot of things to tell you ("you" who?): my six months stage ends tomorrow. Today I talked with my boss and he said that they're all satisfied with my job, that I've got great potential. I'm happy. I knew that he regarded me with esteem, but is very pleasant to receive confirmations. So they extended my contract for another year.
On the other hand I have my little house! I started my moving two weeks ago, it's being difficult and very long... few further things are missing and then everything will be in its place!
I'm trying to manage all this mess, it's hard, but I keep trying...

Don't you too? I do I do I do I do I do

Love me or leave me
make your choice but believe me
I love you
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do
I can't conceal it,
don't you see, can't you feel it?
Don't you too?
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

Oh, I've been dreaming through my lonely past
Now I just made it, I found you at last

So come on, now let's try it,
I love you, can't deny it
'Cos it's true
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

Oh, no hard feelings between you and me
If we can't make it, but just wait and see

So come on, now let's try it,
I love you, can't deny it
'Cos it's true
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do
So love me or leave me,
make your choice but believe me
I love you
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do
I can't conceal it,
don't you see, can't you feel it?
Don't you too?
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

The long and winding week

This has been a hard week. I've given up the idea of living on my own, for the time being, but I'm searching for a car. I spent last 7days to find a nice and cheap car but I haven't decided yet
Meanwhile, I took some time for myself, to understand who I really am and what I want.
I needed some help, and I'm glad that I found it. Now I'm happier and prouder of myself than before, and I have a greater self-esteem

Please, answer me!!

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain.
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again.

And you come to me on a summer breeze,
keep me warm in your love,
then you softly leave.
And it’s me you need to show
how deep is your love.

DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
I REALLY MEAN TO LEARN,
'CAUSE WE'RE LIVING
IN A WORLD OF FOOLS
BREAKING US DOWN,
WHEN THEY ALL SHOULD LET US BE.
WE BELONG TO YOU AND ME

I believe in you.
You know the door to my very soul.
You’re the light in my deepest darkest hour.
You’re my saviour when I fall.

And you may not think I care for you
when you know down inside that I really do.
And it’s me you need to show
how deep is your love.

DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
I REALLY MEAN TO LEARN,
'CAUSE WE'RE LIVING
IN A WORLD OF FOOLS
BREAKING US DOWN,
WHEN THEY ALL SHOULD LET US BE.
WE BELONG TO YOU AND ME...

To go or not to go: that is the question

I have to decide, and decide quickly, what I'm gonna do with my life. Here I found a sort of stability, I'm happy, so I don't know if I want to leave everything for the second time to restart a new life in another city. I'm scared...

How much longer will it take to cure this?

So she said "what's the problem baby?"
What's the problem? I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

If I can fly... can I fly now?

Me, now

Are my wings strong enough to bear the winds out there?

No hope, no love, no glory... no happy ending

Once I had a friend, we spent everyday together, talking, sharing our feelings.
We began when we woke up, and ended with goodnights

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more

We fell in love, we lived the perfect story for awhile... he was all my life, my soul mate.

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.

I fell apart, and spent months trying to pick up the pieces of my broken heart...
I managed it, we keep being friends, talking, sharing and all the things we did before. But nothing was like before.
We lost each other, now we're stranger... what we've been together no longer exists

This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

EDIT: I forgot to thank Mika for "Happy Ending", the beautiful song I used in this post

Chasing Pavements

I loved this song from the first time I heard it... it's so sweet!
It touched me because I see me in her shoes: a not very attractive girl who is in love with a boy.
She doesn't know if he could ever fall for her, maybe she is bothered by her appearance , maybe she don't think he could ever look at her with loving eyes...

She is asking herself "should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere?". Sometimes it's difficult to answer this question, sometimes we choose the wrong way...

This time, I choose to give up