I wanna scream

(without words)

Where did I go wrong?

I expected too much from this travel.
I expected to run away from my problems, but my problems followed me.
I expected to find answers, but I made the wrong questions.
I expected to remember all the things that I have, but I realized that they're not enough anymore.
I expected to forget someone, but I ended up thinking about him all the time.

I'll have to try again...

What if...

Still alive, someway, somehow...
lots of things happened meanwhile, bad things, good things... I keep asking if some of them could have been different, but it makes no sense. You cannot change the past, you can only learn from it and grow and try to become a better person.
I suffered a lot in these months. My already wavering faith in love had to bear a big blow... more than one, on second thoughts.
I cried a lot, I loved and hated, I hitted the bottom and I'm still trying to re-emerge.
Next week I'm going on holiday, maybe relax, sun and sea can help me understand what I really want and what to do with my life.

Unwritten

I am unwritten
can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand
ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
that you can not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition
sometimes my tries are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes
but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
that you can not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
that you can not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Hello everybody

I'm back! I have been living in my new house for 6 weeks. I'm fine, I'm having a lot of fun being alone. I think it's important for a person to spend time living on his own, to understand a lot of things about life and about himself. It gives you larger maturity and wisdom, and it's a great experience.
I'll come back soon, I promise!
bye...

Ch-Ch-Ch-Change

I'm not gone, I'm still here! ;) The problem is the same again: I don't have time... I have a lot of things to tell you ("you" who?): my six months stage ends tomorrow. Today I talked with my boss and he said that they're all satisfied with my job, that I've got great potential. I'm happy. I knew that he regarded me with esteem, but is very pleasant to receive confirmations. So they extended my contract for another year.
On the other hand I have my little house! I started my moving two weeks ago, it's being difficult and very long... few further things are missing and then everything will be in its place!
I'm trying to manage all this mess, it's hard, but I keep trying...

Que sera, sera... whatever will be, will be...

3 weeks...
3 weeks from now I'll have my own home
I'll finally live on my own
I know that I'll have to deal with a lot of issues
I know that it will be very very hard
but when the going gets tough, the tough get going!

Yes we can

I come back after a long silence... I'm very sorry but I don't have much to say.
I keep working, someone says that I'm doing a good job and this makes me happy and proud. I keep searching for a place, but it's hard to find something that fits me.
I'm getting along with my colleague, they are nice and funny and we spend a lot of time laughing together!

So, I'm trying to draw my new life... sometimes it's hard, but it's an attractive challenge!

Don't you too? I do I do I do I do I do

Love me or leave me
make your choice but believe me
I love you
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do
I can't conceal it,
don't you see, can't you feel it?
Don't you too?
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

Oh, I've been dreaming through my lonely past
Now I just made it, I found you at last

So come on, now let's try it,
I love you, can't deny it
'Cos it's true
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

Oh, no hard feelings between you and me
If we can't make it, but just wait and see

So come on, now let's try it,
I love you, can't deny it
'Cos it's true
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do
So love me or leave me,
make your choice but believe me
I love you
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do
I can't conceal it,
don't you see, can't you feel it?
Don't you too?
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

Happy birthday to me!

I'm 23
I've got a degree
I've got a job
I've got a car
I've got some good friends who are always there when I need them
I've got one nephew and three nieces who make me smile

I'm happy...

The long and winding week

This has been a hard week. I've given up the idea of living on my own, for the time being, but I'm searching for a car. I spent last 7days to find a nice and cheap car but I haven't decided yet
Meanwhile, I took some time for myself, to understand who I really am and what I want.
I needed some help, and I'm glad that I found it. Now I'm happier and prouder of myself than before, and I have a greater self-esteem

World conquest: step one

Now, I have a job. At least for next 6 months. I'll start next monday.
I'm scared, excited, nervous, baffled and a lot of other feelings...

Next step: finding a house...

Fight against myself

I said this in my first post and with my first song.

And so I sent some men to fight
And one came back at dead of night
Said he'd seen my enemy
Said he looked just like me

I figured out today what I should have realized long time ago: the reason why I fail my job interviews is that I'm not able to speak highly of myself. They ask me to talk about myself and I can't help thinking about all my faults and all my mistakes. I don't know what to answer when they ask me which benefits they would have hiring me, because I don't think that they would benefit hiring me...
So... my first enemy is myself!
And what can I do to overcome this situation?
I don't know... but I'll find out, I'm sure!

Ich bin eine Berliner

I'm back!!
I already miss Berlin and being with my dear friend, we had a lot of fun together!
Berlin is a nice city with a lot of unfortunately sad history. Now my holidays are coming to an end... soon I'll have to restart my job search :(

Berlin, we're coming!!!

Tomorrow at this time I'll be on a plane, for the first time in my life!
Honey, you'll need a great patience!!!

See you next week!

Leaving

My holidays officially start tomorrow! I've got the feeling that them won't be so relaxing ...
If everything goes as planned, I'll go to Berlin with a special friend ... I would rather have gone to London... but there will be another time

Goodbye to everyone, see you on september!!

Please, answer me!!

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain.
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again.

And you come to me on a summer breeze,
keep me warm in your love,
then you softly leave.
And it’s me you need to show
how deep is your love.

DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
I REALLY MEAN TO LEARN,
'CAUSE WE'RE LIVING
IN A WORLD OF FOOLS
BREAKING US DOWN,
WHEN THEY ALL SHOULD LET US BE.
WE BELONG TO YOU AND ME

I believe in you.
You know the door to my very soul.
You’re the light in my deepest darkest hour.
You’re my saviour when I fall.

And you may not think I care for you
when you know down inside that I really do.
And it’s me you need to show
how deep is your love.

DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE,
I REALLY MEAN TO LEARN,
'CAUSE WE'RE LIVING
IN A WORLD OF FOOLS
BREAKING US DOWN,
WHEN THEY ALL SHOULD LET US BE.
WE BELONG TO YOU AND ME...

To go or not to go: that is the question

I have to decide, and decide quickly, what I'm gonna do with my life. Here I found a sort of stability, I'm happy, so I don't know if I want to leave everything for the second time to restart a new life in another city. I'm scared...

Call me engineer

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Finally I've done it!
I'm proud of myself

Arghhhhh

Hi everybody!
I'm very nervous!!! My degree-day is coming closer and I haven't prepared my speech yet.
As if that were not enough, my shoulders and my face are sunburnt, so I look like a lobster

WHAT CAN I DOOOOO????